Shit lost real good and proper!!

Well once I got off the phone with you babe, my nurse wanted to know what plans were. Then she tried to convince me to go to aus. I got a bit upset because I was confused. Then I (finally!!) got to go on leave to get my gear so finally I don't smell like a dirty sock! I felt good while I was out. It reinforced that I can do this. As soon as I got back however they wanted to search my bags and take away my laptop, chargers, perfume etc etc and I lost my shit. Like seriously just lost it. It's like being in prison. I did however manage to look up some things on my phone so tomorrow ill tell them I'm leaving, catch a train to Bournemouth and stay in a hotel till I can find something more longterm. :) :)